XI.

Hey dolls, sugar babies, bloggers, whoever you are!!!!

I'm back from a long hiatus...

been busy running around enjoying life and trying to maintain my sanity...

SCHOOL

Two more semesters then its off to NURSING [tech] school, and finally UNIVERSITY for a BSN program. I can't wait to start a new chapter of my life and settle into my career. So far, I have two tech schools in mind and they both have different requirements and entrance exams.

It's exhausting.

DRAMA

I know some women say that love sick men are the easiest to manipulate, but its backfiring on me.

Immediate red flag if a guy declares his love for you after day 4 of video chat.

Idk how they do it in Europe but its creepy to throw the word love and marriage all in the conversation. Its even creepier to broadcast your insecurities and self esteem/ depression / family issues. I appreciate the honesty but damn...its like I was hit with a ton of bricks.


I'm tired of his constant need for reassurance. I don't mind giving an occasional ego stroke once in awhile but now I'm starting to feel like your fucking personal therapist. Your so called depression is starting to fuck with my positive vibe.
I know if I say anything to him....I'm automatically the villain. I feel like if I say something he might commit suicide or some shit... I don't want that on my conscience.

This is a non sugar guy...

Do I play along or kick him to the curb?

Even More DRAMA

Jake
I took a break from him bc he wants exclusivity AND he asked me to move in.

I never spent the night with him....we haven't officially fucked yet either. I was sooo freaked out. I kept putting off an answer bc I have commitment phobia. I don't know shit about cohabitation. I would have considered his proposal if he said he wanted to HELP me PURCHASE a place to live.

*sigh

On top of that, he took the car back. He called out of the blue and wanted it back....idk why and I'm not gonna sweat him about it. I HATED gassing that car up anyway. :-(

I'm not tripping bc I have my OWN car...lol my baby is not as nice but it's easier on gas

AND I have new tires. THX JAKE!!!

In retrospect, I think he took the car bc I didn't want to go out with him on Halloween.
I wanted to hang with my friends [new guy] and I did.
Whatever the case is/was he took it personal...

Anyway, our "break" didn't last that long...
He invited me to hang out w a few of his friends for some college game or something.

I've been hanging out nonstop with the guy from kickboxing class. Lets call him Amateur. He's the reason why I'm screwing up with Jake. We went on a few double dates and things are good so far. I hate to admit it but I'm in LUST.

He loves to kiss...I can only imagine what else he can do with that mouth.

SUGAR UPDATES

Accentdaddy is the shit. <3
He kept his word like always and delivered the shoes and stockings from my amazon wish list plus my allowance.

Some of the shoes...too lazy to try the stockings...but I know ACCENTDADDY wants to see me in them. *wink

He's such a good boy. My only problem is the time zone difference. Sometimes I don't feel like getting dolled up and chatting at 6am on a Thursday esp. After a night on the town...but I gotta do what I gotta do.

xoxo

Mocha

[brownsugarbaby]

[ Spoil Me Baby ] Fall Must Haves

I'm in the salon starving. I wish my stylist would hurry the fck up...I've been waiting like half an hour. The least she could do is have her assistant come over and offer some sparkling wine and gluten free cookies.

Sugar Updates

• Everything is FAB with AccentDaddy. He wants more vids of me in the shower and shaving. No problemo. Mucho dinero, papi.
• I'm taking a break from Jake for a few days and I will explain later.
• I have a non sugar double date tonight. Super Excited.

Anyway---

Here is small sample of my Fall / Winter wishlist:

^^No words necessary.

I have a winter white wool coat but I need black.

I'm a shoe fiend.

Accentdaddy has a foot fetish.

Hmmmmm. I'll def ask him to send a pair or two or three.

Cute blazers to transition my bandage dresses.

I'm a thrifty SB!!! x ]

^^ A Must Have dress for dinner w/jake or freestyling.

I have to keep my options open.

*wink*

I need cute ski bunny outfits.

I want to go to Sundance or Winter X-games ASAP!

$$$$

Kim's Goyard Satchel.

Want want want. Super splurge $3500 plus.

I'll take a personalized Goyard.

Please daddy.

*seductive pout*

xoxo

mocha.

[brownsugarbaby]

Unfulfilled

I'm trying to keep the car a secret.

I'm an adult but my parents and friends are the type to investigate and cross examine everything. At home, I have a drive way but I can't pull up and park Jake's car like everything is sweet. Pun intended. ; p

Sooooo...I park my car and switch on the street near my bff n sis's apartment. I told my other sis Jake's car was a Labor Day rental. Idk...it's a job within itself to hide everything and cover my tracks.

How can I focus on the $$$$$ when I have to sneak around nosy friends and family?

*sigh*

I realllllyyyyy like my kickboxing class. I will be in FAB shape for vacay season. It' s mostly soccer moms in my class and maybe two other girls around my age. The icing on the cake is A bunch of aggressive amateur fighters are there training too. It's like a spartan army in the gym.

One guy caught my eye...I could feel him watching me but I never return the stare.

He is fuckin shredded....not overly ripped or disproportionate like the old WWF guys or roided out juiceheads...he is cut all over. Just how I like it. The bod is a TEN. HOT body. Not so hot face.... but we can't have it all. Can we ? lol

Sugar Updates

Accentpot

I met him a few weeks ago while on a date w Jake.

He's frm Scotland. Professor. Married. Late 50's. We had a nice skype chat. ..he was a stranger but it felt like we knew each other forever. His voice is soooo sexy and deep. Scottish accents are the shit. The crazy thing is he loves MY country American accent. He wanted me to say certain words and phrases and he would lol. He was clearly amused. He asked about the guy I was with in the steakhouse when we first met.

*sigh*

I let it all out I was open about everything----college life and my sugar life. And Jake.

He asked were my needs being met.

Yep. *smile*

Sexually.

NO.

My relationship w Jake is not based on sex.

Sex is a non issue.

I never discuss my sex life w anyone except my bff and gyn. Accentpot said everything he needed to know was written all over my face. He said I was clearly frustrated and stressed. He said I was unfulfilled. To my surprise he read me like a book.

He constantly compared himself with Jake. I swear the male ego is a bitch.

Anyway, one thing led to another, he started the dirty talk.

He wanted to see if he could make me cum without touching me. I played along until I saw his dick. Surprisingly, It was a nice size, thick and uncut. <>I let him know in a joking but serious as hell manner ....I wasn't a cam girl and if he wanted a show to hit up my paypal account. I logged off immediately. Later that day/ his night I got a txt from paypal and Accentpot.

He sent the $$$$ but I was NOT about to let him record a vid. NO WAY! Anyway, I turned OFF my CAMERA turned up my mic, stripped and got in my bed. I was originally going to fake it but hell I deserve some fun too.

Suddenly he had complete control as he coached me along.

“Just relax. Close your eyes, Use your hands, imagine it is me. Touch yourself now and imagine that I am with you.”

I nodded, even though he couldn’t see me.

He continued, “You’re laying naked in bed, getting ready to go to sleep. I’m coming out of the bathroom after a hot shower. I drop the towel around my waist, and walk towards you lying on the bed. I climb up on the bed with you and trail my fingers on your skin - from your neck, down your stomach, and along the inside of your thighs.”

I closed my eyes and slowly ran my fingertips along my torso. They danced gracefully across my bare skin, hardly making contact but when they did they sent electric sensations throughout my body. I moved my left hand along the flat plane of my stomach, as my right hand pinched my nipples and moved further down south.I spread my legs and teased my fingers along my slit. At first, I was just bullshitting around but after awhile I was completely turned on.

He continued...

“I move my lips along your jaw line, gently sucking and kissing…I move lower and lower…and dip my fingers into you.”

It surprised me, how real it felt. Like he was so close yet so far away.

“That sweet tight cunt...You are so wet and warm. Aren't u?", he slurred.

His words and voice got to me, as I teased myself, thumbing my clit. My skin was flushed and within minutes I was covered in a light sheen of sweat.

I couldn't say anything i just moaned as I worked my fingers over my clit.

"Fuck. You sound so good.Go faster for me baby. Back and forth. Up and down. Cum on my cock. ” he ordered.

I followed his instructions to a tee.

Soon enough I felt the bed sheet getting damp and I wondered how much more I could take.

I was softly moaning and my breath shortened.

I was about to cum.

In no time my body was reeling, pulsing, arching, moving desperately to ride this wave.

"Oh my god" I moaned breathlessly.

"That's it. Don't stop. Let it happen." He demanded.

I had no choice but to submit to him. I lost control of myself.
I tried desperately to hold it in but I screamed out in intense pleasure.

He said something to me but I couldn't hear him.

I was out of it... took a sec for me to recover.

He laughed lowly, and asked if I was ok. Embarrassed, I told him I'll ttyl. He emailed me the next day and said he wanted to meet up in NYC in Nov. I told him I'll check my schedule and get back. He said we will talk same time next week.

Maybe...$$$$ Talks.

Accentpot is such a naughty, generous boy.

His big cock is a nice bonus too.

A quickie orgasm def. did my body right.
I had the best sleep ever but I felt like something was still missing.

I want more.

xoxo

BrownSugar.